AM I AN ADDICT ?
Only you can answer this question
and this may not be an easy thing to do.
All through our usage, we told ourselves, "I can handle
it." Even if this was true in the beginning, it is not so
now. The drugs handled us. We lived to use and used to live. Very
simply, an addict is a man or woman whose live is controlled by
Perhaps you admit that you have
a problem with drugs, but you don't consider yourself and addict.
All of us have preconeived ideas of what an addict is. There is
nothing shameful about being and addict once you begin to take
positive action. If you can identify with our problems, you may
be able to identify with our solution. The following questions
were written by recovering addicts in Narcotics Anonymous. If
you have doubts about whether or not you're and addict, take a
few moments to read the questions below and answer them as honestly
as you can.
1.) Do you ever
2.) Have you ever
substituted one drug for another, thinking that one particular
drug was the problem?
3.) Have you ever
manipulated or lied to a doctor to obtain prescription drugs?
4.) Have you ever
stolen drugs or stolen to obtain drugs?
5.) Do you regularly
use a drug when you wake up or when you go to bed?
6.) Have you ever
taken one drug to overcome the effects of another?
7.) Do you avoid
people or places that do not approve of you using drugs?
8.) Have you ever
used a drug without knowing what it was or what it would do to
9.) Has your job
or school performance ever suffered from the effects of your drug
10.) Have you ever
been arrested as a result of using drugs?
11.) Have you ever
lied about what or how much you use?
12.) Do you put
the purchace or drugs ahead of your financial responsibilities?
13.) Have you ever
tried to stop or control your using?
14.) Have you ever
been in a jail, hospital, or drug rehabulition center because
of your using?
15.) Does using
interfer with your sleeping or eating?
16.) Does the thought
of running out of drugs terrify you?
17.) Do you feel
it is impossible for you to live without drugs?
18.) Do you ever
question your own sanity?
19.) Is your drug
use making life at home unhappy?
20.) Have you ever
thought you couldn't fit in or have a good time without drugs?
21.) Have you ever
felt defensive, guilty, or ashamed about your using?
22.) Do you think
a lot about drugs?
23.) Do you have
irrational or indefinable fears?
24.) Has using
affected you sexual relationship?
25.) Have you ever
taken drugs that you don't perfer?
26.) Have you ever
used drugs because of emotional pain of stress?
27.) Have you ever
overdosed on any drugs?
28.) Do you continue
to use despite negative consequences?
29.) Do you think
you might have a drug problem?
"Am I an addict?" This is a question only
you can answer. We found that we all answered different numbers
of these questions "yes." The actual number of "yes"
responses wasn't as important as how we felt inside and how addiction
has affected out lives.
Some of these questions don't even mention drugs.
This is because addiction is an insidious disease that affects
all areas of our lives--even those areas which seem at first to
have little to do with drugs. The different drugs we used were
not as important as why we used them and what they did to us.
When we first read these questions, it was frightening
for us to think we might be addicts. Some of us tried to dismiss
these thought by saying:
"Oh, those questions don't make sense;"
"I'm different. I know I take drugs, buy I'm
not an addict. I have real emotional/family/job problems;"
"I'm just having a tough time getting it together
right now;" OR
" I'll be able to stop when I find the right
persom/get the right job, etc."
If you are an addict, you must first admit that
you have a problen with drugs before any progress can be made
toward recovery. These questions, when honestly approached, may
help to show you how using drugs has made your life unmanagable.
Addiction is a disease which, without recovery, ends in jails,
institutions and death. Many of us came to Narcotics Anonymous
because drugs had stopped doing what we needed them to do. Addiction
takes our pride, self-esteem, family, loved ones, and even our
desire to live. If you have not reached this point in you addiction,
you don't have to. We have found that our own private hell was
within us. If you want help, you can find it in the Fellowship
of Narcotics Anonymous.
"We were searching for an answer when we reached
out and found Narcotics Anonymous. We came to our first NA meeting
in defeat and didn't know what to expect After sitting in a meeting,
or several meetings, we began to feel that people cared and were
willing to help. Although our minds told us we would never make
it, the people in the fellowship gave us hope by insisting that
we could recover. Surrounded by fellow addicts, we realized that
we were not alone anymore. Recovery is what happens in our meetings.
Our lives are at stake. We found that by putting recovery first,
the program works. We faced three disturbing realizations:
1. We are powerless over our addiction and our
lives are unmanageable;
2. Although we are not responsible for our disease,
we are responsible for our recovery;
3. We can no longer blame people, places and things
for our addiction. We must face our problems and our feelings.
THE ULTIMATE WEAPON FOR
RECOVERY IS THE RECOVERING ADDICT."